Billie Eilish Used To Hate The Spotlight But Now She "F*cking [Loves] Fame"

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The singer described her struggles with adjusting to fame and how she grew to love her time in the limelight.

Being a child star comes with its added issues as kids often aren't equipped with the tools needed to handle the onset of fame. Billie Eilish has spent the better part of her teen years in the spotlight, and she hasn't minced words when speaking about her disdain for fame in the past. However, the 19-year-old Grammy-winner has grown to love the outpouring of praise and recognition that comes with her career. Eilish and her brother Finneas appeared on the SmartLess podcast co-hosted by acclaimed actors Jason Bateman, Will Arnett, and Sean Hayes, and the singer spoke about her struggles with fame.

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"The parts I hated three years ago, those are the parts that I'm digging now. Fame, in general, I used to just despise it, I hated everything about it," she said. "I hated being recognized, I hated not being able to go out, I hated not being able to post a place because then people would show up at that place wherever it was because they'd figure out where it is."

"And I felt stupid because I had this thing that like, is really cool, people would kill for, and I didn't like it at all," Eilish continued. "And I was also forgetting that I was really, really depressed and that can make you hate almost anything. I don't really know what changed, but I f*cking love fame. I love it."

"I definitely like what I'm doing with it," she added. "I feel more confident with it. There were some years where I felt like I had to prove myself all the time, especially to the kids I grew up with." The singer shared that whenever she would attend events back home with her peers, she felt as if they saw her as a "joke."

"I felt like I had to prove that I was actually doing pretty well," said Eilish. Listen to her episode of SmartLess in full below.


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Since 2019, Erika Marie has worked as a journalist for HotNewHipHop, covering music, film, television, art, fashion, politics, and all things regarding entertainment. With 20 years in the industry under her belt, Erika Marie moved from a writer on the graveyard shift at HNHH to becoming a Features Editor, highlighting long-form content and interviews with some of Hip Hop’s biggest stars. She has had the pleasure of sitting down with artists and personalities like DJ Jazzy Jeff, Salt ’N Pepa, Nick Cannon, Rah Digga, Rakim, Rapsody, Ari Lennox, Jacquees, Roxanne Shante, Yo-Yo, Sean Paul, Raven Symoné, Queen Naija, Ryan Destiny, DreamDoll, DaniLeigh, Sean Kingston, Reginae Carter, Jason Lee, Kamaiyah, Rome Flynn, Zonnique, Fantasia, and Just Blaze—just to name a few. In addition to one-on-one chats with influential public figures, Erika Marie also covers content connected to the culture. She’s attended and covered the BET Awards as well as private listening parties, the Rolling Loud festival, and other events that emphasize established and rising talents. Detroit-born and Long Beach (CA)-raised, Erika Marie has eclectic music taste that often helps direct the interests she focuses on here at HNHH. She finds it necessary to report on cultural conversations with respect and honor those on the mic and the hardworking teams that help get them there. Moreover, as an advocate for women, Erika Marie pays particular attention to the impact of femcees. She sits down with rising rappers for HNHH—like Big Jade, Kali, Rubi Rose, Armani Caesar, Amy Luciani, and Omerettà—to gain their perspectives on a fast-paced industry.