R. Kelly's Daughter Reveals She Considered Suicide Due To Bullying About Her Father

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She shared her story on "Growing Up Hip Hop Atlanta."

On Thursday, R. Kelly was out walking his dog when he was stopped and arrested. We reported on the 52-year-old singer being charged with 13 federal counts related to obstruction of justice, enticement of a minor to engage in criminal activity, and child pornography. For decades, Kelly has been at the center of accusations that have crippled him both personally and professionally, and when Lifetime's award-winning documentary Surviving R. Kelly was released, opposition against the singer intensified. 

There are people who are not often spoken about, but who are directly connected to, the infamy associated with Kelly. His family often bears the brunt of his alleged sins, especially his children who have grown up in the shadows of these heinous accusations. Kelly's ex-wife Drea Kelly and his 21-year-old daughter Buku Abi are newest cast members on Growing Up Hip Hop Atlanta, and unsurprisingly the drama surrounding Kelly is the core of their storyline.

In an emotional segment, Abi spoke openly about what it's been like being on the receiving end of cruel messages from strangers who have taken to cyber-bullying. "Having to deal with everything in the media with my father is not easy," she said. "People are constantly like, 'How do you feel about the scandals?' I don't give a f*ck about the scandals. I have an issue with my father. I had to drop out of school. I've had parents not let their children hang out with me. I spend a lot of days, or nights, crying. But, like, damn. I'm sad, and I have the right to be sad."

"Literally the other day I had somebody DM me on Instagram," Buku said to her mother. "She said that she wished you would've been stronger and I was like, 'My mom made the strongest move in the world by leaving him.' Like, if I get a negative comment or people come at me, delete. You're blocked. I'm not even reading it."

"I get that all the time," she continued. "People don't realize how bad...Sorry, guys." She stopped because she began to cry. "People don't realize how bad that hurts, because it's, like, I didn't do anything, you know? I didn't ask to be here....We're still trying to heal from a lot, like, a lot, a lot, to the point where I almost tried to take my life. Like, that is heavy sh*t. And then to turn around and be like, 'Oh, you should not feel that way. You're selfish for feeling that way,' it's just, like, y'all are really heartless."


About The Author
Since 2019, Erika Marie has worked as a journalist for HotNewHipHop, covering music, film, television, art, fashion, politics, and all things regarding entertainment. With 20 years in the industry under her belt, Erika Marie moved from a writer on the graveyard shift at HNHH to becoming a Features Editor, highlighting long-form content and interviews with some of Hip Hop’s biggest stars. She has had the pleasure of sitting down with artists and personalities like DJ Jazzy Jeff, Salt ’N Pepa, Nick Cannon, Rah Digga, Rakim, Rapsody, Ari Lennox, Jacquees, Roxanne Shante, Yo-Yo, Sean Paul, Raven Symoné, Queen Naija, Ryan Destiny, DreamDoll, DaniLeigh, Sean Kingston, Reginae Carter, Jason Lee, Kamaiyah, Rome Flynn, Zonnique, Fantasia, and Just Blaze—just to name a few. In addition to one-on-one chats with influential public figures, Erika Marie also covers content connected to the culture. She’s attended and covered the BET Awards as well as private listening parties, the Rolling Loud festival, and other events that emphasize established and rising talents. Detroit-born and Long Beach (CA)-raised, Erika Marie has eclectic music taste that often helps direct the interests she focuses on here at HNHH. She finds it necessary to report on cultural conversations with respect and honor those on the mic and the hardworking teams that help get them there. Moreover, as an advocate for women, Erika Marie pays particular attention to the impact of femcees. She sits down with rising rappers for HNHH—like Big Jade, Kali, Rubi Rose, Armani Caesar, Amy Luciani, and Omerettà—to gain their perspectives on a fast-paced industry.